Tuesday, March 30, 2010

dreams

i rise
venture forth outside
in pursuit of you
the woman of my dreams

you called
you didnt know you called
a melody i love
drifting in on a lonesome breeze

i was sitting here, here
you're somewhere out there, there
i'll follow your trail
until i find you in your room
waiting for me, i presume
I'll follow the tune to get to you
the woman of my dreams

It's strange,
the way you know my soul
without knowing me
you know it all
You see inside
you see beyond
and with a breath
I'll follow you

i was sitting here, here
you're somewhere out there, there
i'll follow your trail
until i find you in your room
waiting for me, i presume
I'll follow the tune to get to you
the woman of my dreams


that song you played
it was for me
i know it was
so dont pretend
dont act surprised
just settle down
i'm here for you
we're meant to be
i know its true

i was sitting here, here
you're somewhere out there, there
i'll follow your trail
until i find you in your room
waiting for me, i presume
I'll follow the tune to get to you
the woman of my dreams

PANIC

tossed in the covers
ripped up pants
kicked in the corner
take a chance
darkness all around
push into your soul
then tumble to the ground
take then lose control

Panic!
i need more, i need more
Panic!
gimme more, gimme more
Panic!
don't stop, don't stop
and we'll climb on up
up to the top

take then lose control
then tumble to the ground
push into your soul
darkness all around
take that chance
kicked into the corner
ripped up pants
tossed into the covers

Panic!
i need more, i need more
Panic!
gimme more, gimme more
Panic!
don't stop, don't stop
and we'll climb on up
up to the top

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Revelation

[v1]
the windows are open
the lights are on
the sounds are creeping to the lawn

somehow she sleeps
through all the noise
snoring softly, lacking poise

mindless drifting
far away
chasing shadows from the day

[chorus]
Revelation
Revelation
unable to create that
Revelation

Revelation
What's the point of a
Revelation?

Revelation
fuck this noise I want a
Revelation

[v2]
i try to do it
to cross her out
i clutch the weapon but have a doubt

what if they catch me?
what if they see?
i'd do it for her but not to me

she stirs on her pillow
eyes flutter like mice
i lose the power to take your advice

[Chorus]

[bridge]
revelation
i'll run out that door
revelation
i don't need you anymore
revelation
you're a beautiful mess
revelation
and I'm better
so much better
I'll be better
you-less.

Snap

I didn't ask for this
pulled the covers over my head
dodged the loathsome kiss
drowned in what you said

helpless
stalling
pressured
falling
hopeless
crying
fractured
then
SNAP

Way up

Way up
Way way up
way up
looking down
down down
looking down at you

What you gonna do about it
stand up straighter
attempt to meet my eye
I'm way up here
You're way down there
I'm looking down at you

Way up up up
looking down down down
up down up down up down up down

1000 miles a minute
going
coming
going
coming
going
coming

It's not that I think I'm better than you
It's just that I'm up here
sailing through like it's nothing
and you're still down there
always held down by something

Way up up up
looking down down down
up down up down up down up down

Way up up up
looking down down down
up down up down up down up down

One Night

See them wandering around
smug fat faces
they don't understand

and there is the girl that I loved
dirty and used
from a one night stand
a one night stand

I can not explain the low now
I can not tell you why
I can not stop these feelings
I can not look away from you

Beautiful you
Your dirt smudged face
a look of disgrace

one night stand

You don't have to tell me
I could read it in your eyes
You didn't mean to hurt me
and you can't stand to lie

Everyone attracts you
and you can't bear to stop
No one will forget

your large brown eyes
that impish smile
a quiet sigh
and then goodbye

one night stand

((music))

One night one night one night one night one night one night one night one night stand

Peligroso

me dijo es tan peligroso
pero no puedo creer
no me dijo es peligroso
mi lugar, mi hogar

no sabes que es peligroso
los moments sin razon
no hay nada que es mas peligroso
tan sientos en mi corazon

nadie pueden lastimar me
mas que li mismo
porque nadie saben mis faltas
mas que yo

[chorus]
peli...peligroso
pero no tengo miedo
peli... peligroso
pero no soy timido

cuidate nina
los vampiros te buscan
siempre tienen hambre
para suenos que no puedan parrar

cuidate nina
porque todas te miran
y tus ojos han causado
un guerra de corazon

no me dijo nada
porque no puedo escuchar
calmate cochinos
solemente soy la duena de la mar

[CHORUS]

no no no no me dijo
no no no no me dijo
no no no no me dijo
no no no no me dijo

Waiting

Waiting, waiting, always waiting
Never knowing what comes next
Step up here now stand right there now
Waiting for whatever's next

Just be patient, child
Don't you panic, child
Wait a minute, child
and you'll see something new is rising from the sea

calm down
breathe
take a pause
think it through
doubt the cause

can't you see we know what's best?
shut your mouth and don't digress

Saturday, March 27, 2010

A little altered

I'm a little altered
A little pissed
A little panicked
Triple kissed
A bit resentful
A bit confused
A bit frightened
Completely used

Lying here wondering what will be
Tomorrow will they come for me
The suits are shaking full of fright
That someone has me in his sight

((repeat all))

Friday, March 26, 2010

two people sitting on a park bench

[v1]
tiny freckles dance around your dark, engaging eyes
sprinkles on the cupcake frosted carefully with sighs

teenaged girls caught staring on a sunny windy day
smiling kinda shyly in that special girlie way

i'm glad I ordered lemon, hope your cookies taste good too
you're looking all around and I'm just looking straight at you

[chorus]
here we are
two people
sitting on a park bench... smiling like we know things...

here we are
two people
sitting on a park bench... smiling like we know things...

but who knows... what the future brings
who knows... what the future brings

[v2]
you'll forget to love me when i forget to smile
saying that we're sorry but its been dead a while

searching for some meaning when meaning isn't there
i'll fail, again, to notice that you cut off all your hair

does it really matter that we'll go out separate ways?
should we get together, even if just for 3 days?

[CHORUS]

[bridge 1]
and even when
I smile again
you won't be there
so will it matter?

and even when
I love again
she won't be you
so will it matter?

can it matter?

does it ever really matter?

[CHORUS]

you grin to yourself before you kiss me goodbye
i wander away, slowly, never knowing why

I think of your pouty lips and you think of my hands
i'm searching for comfort, you want someone who understands

[CHORUS]

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Eating Breath...

Eating breath

(v1)
What are we doing
Is this real or did I dream
I swear I see through you

Maybe i'm just eating breath

Where did the day go
It was just 3
I haven't moved in ages

Maybe I'm just eating breath

(chorus)
Don't know
Don't know anything
Don't know
Don't know anything anymore

Can't tell
Can't tell anything
Can't tell
Can't tell anything anymore

Maybe I'm just eating breath

(v2)
Could I be lost now?
On a street I've walked before
nothing's familiar

Maybe I'm just eating breath

A specter wanders by
an echo from a memory
no smile of recognition

Maybe I'm just eating breath

(CHORUS)

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

blue

couldn't help but notice.......


that your eyes......


are the same....

shade....

of blue....



as a corpse's smile.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Trip

((I hear this song with a very playful tune... maybe even xylophone. i actually just recorded an a capella version of this in case you like it and want to hear the tune I am thinking of. ))

[v1]
Under the ground
around the corner
she waits

Chasing a sound
around the darkness
she gaits

Do it yourself
no one can help you
its true

somebody said
you'll find the answers
in you

[chorus]
Trip on a rock
fall in a hole
spinning around
losing control
upside is down
downside is in
never too soon
try it again

[v2]
radio waves
always surround us
they say

creeping around
then penetrating
each day

she wanders on
limping slowly
alone

tries to get help
but there's no signal
on the phone

[CHORUS]

[bridge]
Didn't anyone tell you
not to play on your own?

Didn't anyone warn you
never stray far from home?

Chasing little white rabbits
will only cause you distress

Write this down on your forearm
It'll be on the test

[v3]
Stop by a pool
gaze into it
and see

A glimpse of the past
an unrelated
reality

She falls to the ground
around her shadows
amass

Slip from the edge
the final spiral
at last

[CHORUS]

Monday, March 22, 2010

a cracked mind

[v1]
Wake up in the middle of the day
didn't know I was sleeping

I'm tuned to the wrong frequency
alone in my delusion

everyone else in unison
sharing some hidden reality

I see a woman falling into the void
but somewhere the laugh track is echoing

[chorus]
this is a sign of a cracked mind
floating away from reality
the shimmering eyes that you once loved
the hands of a thief stealing over me

this is a sign of the last straw
floating away with my sanity
if you stab me to death with my broken heart
how can I bleed? Will I still bleed?

[v2]
look up can't believe the clock is right
didn't know time was drifting

I'm lost in a foreign future past
searching for the meaning

everyone else seems so alive
vulgar and bright and seething

I see their faces full of joy
but somehow I just hear screaming


[chorus]

[bridge]
How could the voice that soothed, now strike fear in me?
How could the touch that thrilled, bruise my body?
The face that I love I now despise...
How could those eyes... be... the same eyes?
Are those yours eyes?
Were those your eyes?
I once loved those eyes

[chorus]

Don't

[[Sweeping ballad ala the old days]]
Don't say you love me til you know me
Don't say you love me til its sure
Love isn't just a silly game, girl
Love can be hard work and a chore

Don't say you love me til you know me
Don't say you love me til its sure
Love isn't instant,
it takes time, girl
its not just your feelings,
its much more

Til you've face my indecisions
and my lack of inhibitions
til you've met my every part

Til you've seen me cross and lazy
being stupid, acting crazy
I don't want you to give me your heart

People take love much too lightly
falling for every pretty face
I think that love should be forever
something that can not be displaced

Maybe we have different definitions
Maybe I overthink it all
But I've seen love turn into madness
I've seen love destroy the soul

Til you've seen my ugly side
and held me while I've cried
I don't think love could start

Til I know you in and out
and I've overcome my doubt
I just can't give you my heart

Don't say you love me til you know me
Don't say I'm sent from above
I know you're feelings are exciting
but infatuation isn't love

take it

Don't question

Don't think

Don't move

Don't blink

Shut up and take it like a man

Don't leave

Don't hestitate

Don't push

Don't postulate

Shut up and take it like a man

I finally got you right here where I want you

I finally trapped you you're mine

I don't give a fuck if you're screaming or your hurting

Shut up and take it like a man

Don't act like you don't want me

Don't act like you don't need me

Don't act like you don't feel me

Don't act like you don't love me

(repeat of 'don't act like' verses to hypnotic swelling music til the music reaches a climax and explodes into noise then goes dead.... Then there is panting... Then....)

Shut up and take it like a man

Wasabi

Wasabi
leapt up from the plate
Ginger laughed
Thinking it was great
Who knew
Who knew
Who knew how it would end
Surprise attack
A secret plot unfurled
Unprepared
The colors pulsed and whirled
(crazy frantic battle and chase music that ends tragically)
Who knew
Who knew
Who knew how it would end
Ginger cries
Mourning her great loss
Wasabi lies
Awash it soy sauce
Who knew.......

Japanese

[v1]
you say you know me
you say you know me better than i know myself

you say you get me
you say you get me and i'm this and that and nothing else

how are you sure that you see what i am
how are you sure that i'm not a secret shape shifter coming from the mountains?

[c]
how do you know I'm not androgyne?
or 10 ft tall?
or secretly your liver?

can you be sure I'm not from the stars
or made of gold?
maybe I'm japanese!

[v2]
your eyes roll
your eyes roll when I spout my newest theory

your head shakes
your head shakes and you smile that knowing smile

I'm shot down and left on the ground bleeding
I'm shot down ...are you sure it's blood and not an elixir to could cure metrophobia?

[c]
CHORUS

[b]
you're sure of everything
and I'm always questioning
maybe you're right
but maybe....
maybe....
maybe.... I'm Japanese!

[c]
CHORUS

Georgia

hola georgia
i dont hear a thing that you say
hola georgia
i wouldn't understand anyway

bonjour georgia
no oiga las palabras que hablas
bonjour georgia
no puedo entender nunca mas

hello georgia
Je ne vous entends pas
hello georgia
Je ne vous comprends pas

It's not that I don't speak your language
It's not that you don't speak clear
It's just so hard for me to listen
when my heart's pounding in my ears

Hola Georgia
[Music]
Bonjour Georgia
[Music]
Hello.... [sigh]..... Georgia

Rose Petal Rain

[v1]
i took the symbol
of your undying love
i crushed your blossoms (crushed your blossoms)
i smiled,
and threw them from above

[C]
a spray of emotion
and the panic of the moment
in drifting of the scarlet droplets
i made
a rose petal rain

[v2]
you thought you owned me
you thought i was for sale
i guess i showed you (guess i showed you....)
when i made the flowers hail

[c]
a spray of emotion
and the panic of the moment
in the drifting of the scarlet droplets
i made
a rose petal rain

[B]
[[super speeds up and gets progressively faster and louder]]
what will you do now?
how will you manage?
lost your investment...
guess you'll refinance...
don't understand it
thought you'd control me
break it, you buy it?
[[SLOWS DOWN]]
not with my heart...
NOT WITH MY HEART...

[c]
a spray of emotion
and the panic of the moment
in the drifting of the scarlet droplets
i made
a rose petal rain

Yeah.

So all the lyrics below this are old... just wanted to have all my lyrics in one place.

The end.

From now on... new.

The end again.

Olvidado

No me olvides si no regreso
No me olvides si no me ves

Porque solo vivo en tú miente y corazón

No me olvides o siempre seré olvidado

Dont forget me though I cant come back to you
Dont forget me though you cant see me anymore

I only live in your thoughts and in your heart

Dont forget me or Ill always be forgotten

No me olvides si no regreso
Dont forget me though you cant see me anymore

Porque solo vivo en tú miente y corazón

Dont forget me or Ill always be forgotten

forgotten

olvidado

forgotten

olvidado

forgotten

Icarus


V1
I have tempted you
with golden apples
you love the way they shine
but hate the taste
I have called to you
With the songs of Sirens
You draw near my port
Then turn away
Turn away
Turn away
chorus
You can fly on wings of wax and feather
far away
Soaring high to the sun
I’ll just wait
Soon enough you’ll crash into the sea
Don’t you know
You’ll never get away from me
You’ll never get away from me
V2
I have offered you
6 shining rubies
But you never would
Taste my fruit
And I have played for you
On golden lyres
You ignore my songs
And walk away
Walk away
Walk away

CHORUS

Bridge:
So go on, keep staring
the water is deep
well I'll pluck you my pretty little flower
I'll never let you

CHORUS x 2

Gray

(v1)
Midnight in London
Eighteen ninety three
tucked away from prying eyes
worshiping beauty

I was so earnest
you were so pale
as I fingered dancing curls
with a trembling exhale

I earned your laughter
with some offhand witty phrase
and you crept into my blood
with your opulent gaze


(chorus)
No one could see what you had hidden away
stashed in your closet, painted to betray
your gilded armor was to cover the decay
and I watched those blue eyes I adored fade to gray


(v2)
Midday in London,
Eighteen ninety five
the gavel crashed straight down
in an eloquent nosedive

your father reddened
but we never felt the shame
the wind was hot with whispers
they dared not speak its name

I can't remember
how I used to make you smile
you ask me not to try
you'd like to cry for a while


(chorus)
No one could see what you had hidden away
stashed in your closet, painted to betray
your gilded armor was to cover the decay
and I watched those blue eyes I adored fade to gray


I couldn't see what you had hidden away
stashed in your closet, painted to betray
your gilded armor was to cover the decay
and I watched those blue eyes I adored fade to gray

Survive

she was a young girl who needed to believe
that she belonged to something bigger than herself
he was a young boy who always had the feeling
that he could be bigger than anybody else

the fates conspired to bring them to each other
a couple kindred spirits in a small Texas town
Together they wandered aimlessly through empty streets
weaving mass conspiracies about everything around

(CHORUS)
and they were running through the graveyard
making up stories and chasing demons
running through the churchyard
searching for signs that god's alive

living in that small town
trying not to lose themselves
living in their own world
just trying to survive

(or a musical interlude?)

She never noticed dark circles underneath his eyes
etched there by the secrets that he thought he couldn't share
Sometimes he noticed a glimpse of shame darken her face
he wanted to ask her why, but he didn't dare

(CHORUS)

(BRIDGE)
Midsummer evenings can cast a spell to ease teenage pain
Tucked away graveyards can become magic lands in the mind
They didn't know that the secrets that they kept were the same
When will they realize that beneath it they were two of a kind

(CHORUS)

G A C

g d c g d c d
i'm fallin' in love with a man from Japan
g d c d g d - c - d
at least they tell me he's a man
g d c d g d c d
I saw him kissing other guys on the stage
g d c d g d c d
apparently in japan its all the rage
g d c -------- g d c
man on man action in japan oh japan


g a c
G - A - C
g a c
G - A - C
g a c-------------------------g
I can almost spell your name with
a c
my guitar

(same chords)
G - A- C
G - A- C
I can almost spell your name with
my guitar


f d g
and there are problems in every relationship
f d g
I don't speak Japanese
f d g-----------------------------
and you live thousands of miles away
b f d
you don't even know I exist

(same chorus chords)
G - A - C
G - A - C
I can almost spell your name with
my guitar
G -A -C
G - A - C
I'm fallin in love with a
f d g
Japanese Superstar

Brown Paper Bag

I wrote this song in a brown paper bag
so no one else can see just how I feel

I wrote this song on an old piece of trash
so I can stash it somewhere and never reveal

that I can't help but feel that there's something in your eyes
that could ruin my whole life if I don't look away in time

I'll keep this song all to myself
hidden on the inside of
a brown paper bag

The thing I never meant to be

I can't believe the person I've turned out to be
five years ago I'd have slapped my own face
it seems impossible that this was deep inside all along

I hear you say
you didnt raise me this way

(Chorus)
I never meant to be your sworn enemy
I never meant to be the thing that you despise
and I
I never meant to be anything to embarrass you
but I can't change
The things I never meant to be

bridge:
sometimes in life you find yourself travelling down a path
but you don't know how you got there

how can you make you way back to the place you were
when you can't retrace your steps?

and don't think that I don't notice the sudden silence that's stolen
the air now that you know
now you know
The wrinkles outline the empty space were once you use to smile at me
You use to smile at me

Katharine Rose

Katharine rose today
and said "Hey! This is my life, but I don't want it!
I want all the things that I have seen in movies and on tv."

But she had bills to pay
and only $15 in her pocket

Disclaimer

Don't fall for me
Don't fall for me
I'll only break your heart
don't fall for me

I'll lead you on
I'll write you love songs
but in the end I'll flee
don't fall for me.

Venus and Adonis

Well I, I am, no goddess of love
and you, my dear, are no perfect roman stud
but Venus chased Adonis all over those old hills
and I, I'll keep on, chasing you.

In or Out?

(v1)

sometimes i wonder how would things be different
if I got my way
would i be enamored with your temperament?
your cherry blossom game?


(prechorus)
would i even want you
if you could be mine?

(chorus)
how would i feel
if my feelings were real
if they actually counted for anything
anyway

would i rush to your arms
or away from your charm
would we fall in or out?
in or out of love?

(v2)
I can't remember the first time I saw you face
but now your lips haunt my songs
But would I treasure each fleeting, stolen kiss
if no one said they were wrong?

(prechorus 2)
Am I only longing for
things I shouldn't have?

Chorus

When she smiles that smile

v1
sarah's got a little secret
i can see it in her eyes
i can hear it in her footsteps
and the cadence of her sighs

c1
and i know i'll never know what's going on
when sarah smiles that smile

v2
sarah says just what she's thinking
although that changes day to day
sometimes she thinks she likes bananas
other times she says she's gay

c2
nobody can be sure
what's going on with this girl
and nobody, nobody knows what's going on
when sarah smiles that smile

[musical interlude]

b1
sarah is so pretty
anyone can see that
sarah is so funny
humor flows so effortlessly
but sarah hides a secret
and nobody can see it
deep in her heart

[musical interlude 2]

c2
nobody can be sure
what's going on with this girl
and nobody, nobody knows what's going on
when sarah smiles that smile

Scrap Time

[verse 1]
can i tell you it hurts to be on your list
just another of a thousand items that you have to do
i can see its true

you fill up your life with so much shit
that when i call it always goes to voicemail
just another fail



[verse 2]
can i tell you that i cry when i'm all alone
sitting around just waiting for your call
but it doesn't come at all

and my friends all tell me to just move on
to find another lover who won't leave me singing blues
but i just want you

[chorus]
i want to be more
and i want to mean more
yes i need to be more than 'drop off the laundry and go the store'

Why do I take
oh why do i take
why do i take
why do i take your scrap time?

why can't i mean
why can't i mean
why can't i mean
as much to you as you mean to me?

i just can't stop
i just can't stop
i just can't stop
making my heart long to be with you

so i will keep on
i will keep on
i will keep on
savoring scrap time with you

[verse 3]

You'll never know

you'll never know
how good we are together
you'll never know
how much I make you smile
you'll never know
our love – it lasts forever
you'll never know
how I make your life worthwhile

from the moment we met
we've had a love we'll never forget
don't you regret
you told me no

you'll never smell
the flowers that surround you
you'll never taste
the sweat on my skin
you'll never hear
the songs I sing about you
you'll never see
me smile again

from the second we started this game
nothing has been the same
you can't say that I am to blame
you let me go

you'll never feel
my kisses captivate you
you'll never feel
me fuck you late at night
you'll never feel
my arms slipping around you
you'll never feel
me squeeze so tight

from the moment we met
we've had a love we'll never forget
don't you regret
you told me no

from the second we started this game
nothing has been the same
you can't say that I am to blame
you let me go
you'll never know

Katharine


Tears fall from his blue eyes
like a pouring rain from a clear sky
Tears fall down to dry dirt
making rivers on her brown shirt

She doesn't know how to stop him
He doesn't know when he should
She's thinking "why's life uncertain?"
He's thinking, "damn, life is good"

And then the tears fall
His tears fall
The tears fall
His stubborn tears fall
She walks through the city
like a lost child on the playground
She walks on his eyelash
if she falls in then she might drown
She doesn't know how to tell him
He wouldn't listen if she tried
Her heart is full of confusion
His heart is full of pride
And then the tears fall
His tears fall
The tears fall
His stubborn tears fall
[MUSICAL INTERLUDE]

He takes her into the bedroom
He has ideas of romance
She doesn't know how to love him
He doesn't know that she can't

And then the tears fall His tears fall
The tears fall
His stubborn tears fall

Take you in


I'll take you in
for a while
while the sun shines
while the bird sings
I'll take you in
with a smile
then I'll toss you out
when you're nothing
and I will break your heart
rip it from your chest
throw away the rest
but I will keep your broken heart
put it on a shelf
save it for myself
I'll take you in
with a smile
give you answer
to your questions
I'll take you in
for a while
then I'll leave you in the darkness
without protection
and I will break your heart
rip it from your chest
throw away the rest
but I will keep your broken heart
put it on a shelf
save it for myself

Second Chance

Second Chance
I see you searching for a reason to stay
looking for answers in books, songs, and therapy
there are no words that can change what I've done
I searched for answers in the arms of someone
else
I still love you
can you believe me when I say that its true
I still love you
I see you searching for clues in my eyes
for signs of love
or a way to detect a lie
can you forgive me for what I have done?
I earned this letter in the arms of someone
else
But I still love you
can you believe me when I say that it's true?
I still love you
I see you searching for a reason to stay
I only have one thing to say
I still love you

Under the Mango Tree


Under the Mango Tree
I know I called you at a very inconvenient time
Your crazy world keeps spinning while this dreamer's asleep

All I ask is for a chance to kiss you
under the mango tree

I know you are so high above I could never deserve you
but if you fall, you'll be glad to have someone down here to catch you

I'll never be the girl of your dreams
but can I kiss you one time
under the mango tree?
All I ask is for a chance to kiss you
under the mango tree

Here we go again...

Nothing is official til I make a gmail account or a blog for it. So here we go again.

This is my attempt at motivating myself to write more lyrics. The last time I wrote a song was waaay back before I moved to Mexico. That's stupid. I love to write songs. I love to write!

So here I go. I am challenging myself to write some lyrics everyday (yeah right) even if they are RUBBISH to write SOMETHING.

Like most of my projects this probably won't last a month... but.. you know... might as well try.

So. Here I go. Project: Rubbish Lyrics. Commence.